how do i find myself when i know that i am lost?
my gut feeling is telling me that what i have been searching for isn’t in my presence.
so do i choose to doubt the undoubtable reverend?
do i not trust him after he has been right all along?
do i ignore his instincts when everything seems to be going according to the song?
trusting him would be inviting chaos into the peace that i have created.
if i were to trust him i would surely be hated..
so, do i trust my gut and endure the consequences?
or continue along this path and risk living the life that i’ve been living.
my conscience has been creating confusion equating nothing but nonsense.
and making it appear as though i am all out of options.
and maybe i am.
it’s harder to make a decision when you are unable to see the costs of each path.
like having to choose whether to be shot or to be stabbed.
at first glance one appears to be better than the other, but neither is really appealing.
you can never truly know the damage of each until you choose; you just have to be willing. 
so will I choose or will I fail to choose? 
when each option seems like i have been destined to lose.
i need hope or a sign of some nature.
where is that spark that shines so bright?
the one that guides me through this maze called life.
for without it i fear i may get lost. no...no.
i’m already lost, but at least i know it.
one thing’s for certain: i can recognize that spark once i’m shown it.
but without it i’ll remain stranded in the land of the unknowing.

»B.Don