motivation is nonexistent.
determination is what i’m missing.
a divine purpose - a commitment.
a mission.
growing weary of the wishing.
all the signs are there i just need to listen.
what does it mean to be living? existing?
non-existent? 
sometimes i wish i could disappear - but to where?
who would care? do i dare?
vanish through the air. 
am i prepared?
one could never be - inevitably. 
i am redefining the word - destiny.

»B.Don